Total spaz. Dreamer. Worrier.
Unique like Everyone Else.
I want to have a really long and deep conversation with someone.
I don’t have any specific topic in mind, but all I know is that I want to listen to someone talk and tell me about how lonely they’ve felt recently, or a passion that they have and cannot get enough of, or a realization that has just recently struck them. No matter how menial or grand whatever they have to say is, I want to listen and be intrigued and just converse.
I’ve noticed recently that whenever I talk to people we don’t actually have a conversation. More so, it is just a briefing of topics or ideas. Talking to someone today consists of speaking declarative personal statements that aren’t really ‘shared’, even though the statements might be related.
It’s really kind of depressing. It’s as though there are only pleasantries and passing moments that get exchanged.
There aren’t relationships forged over a late night hang out while you laugh and share secrets.
There are no friendships gained through:
"Oh, how are you?! I haven’t seen you in forever!"
"I know it really has been so long"
"We should get lunch and catch up"
"We should, just text me"
There is no true knowing of a person anymore. It’s just selfish statements of a person’s own opinion or agenda.
And it would be really nice to be able to have a conversation with the opposite sex without it turning into some kind of curious investigative questions game to see how far the other has gone, or if they’re interested in you, or if they think about you in a certain way.
I would love to be able to talk to one of my guy friends and laugh and joke around without being worried that my general personality and friendliness be construed as flirting.
Since when did being friendly automatically mean that you are a flirt?
I know that when it comes to girls and boys the platonic relationship thing always gets challenged, no matter how many times you insist that you’re “just friends”.
It makes sense to think that if you are able to have such conversations with a guy and he makes you happy, then why the hell shouldn’t you guys be also putting your mouths together?
You know what, if that were to happen…then great!
But it doesn’t have to be that way. Girls can talk to guys without wanting them to come on to them or reassure them they are pretty. And guys can talk to girls without wondering if they can get in their pants, or at least get out of the friend zone.
I want late night tangents and shared stories and relatable words.
I want sharing thoughts and ideas and philosophies.
Who else is looking for the same thing?